Did I ever tell you about the story of how I got up and sang “Genie in a Bottle,” for my elementary school talent show? Well, I didn’t have an act at first for the talent show, but I had the cd and knew every song. Genie in the Bottle seemed the best, I suppose. I hadn’t even gotten to the best part and my music teacher turned it off and told me to sit down. Her exact words were, “ALLLright, Thank you so much. You can sit down now.” Wasn’t until years later, I’m sitting at my job and 99.1 plays the song and I’m sitting there like OMG. BRITTANY. THIS SONG WAS HIGHLY INAPPROPRIATE. LIKE WHY. I never knew why she kicked me off the stage, because in that moment you couldn’t tell me nothin about my performance.
I was inspired to blog, because Spodify took it back and played Genie in the Bottle during my 90’s mix the other day. LOL. Then it got me listening to her whole album.
This is not an ad for you to buy her album. This is not a sponsored blog. Ha. But know if I’m singing karaoke, it will be something from her album. 100%.
If I could write anything on my letterman jacket, you know under your last name, it would say “somebody’s somebody.” That’s what I was looking for. I was looking for someone to love me. Cherish me. Hold me. High school in my head was meant for love. Like no Brittany. It’s actually a place of learning.
I was sitting with a group of friends and I remember someone saying, this guy thinks you’re cute. He was older so of course with my thirsty self I was on it! This guy was the popular guy in high school. I’m like OMG. I have found the one whom my soul loves. HA. Extra eager self. I told my friend to let him know I thought he was cute too. Little did I know, he would be my first heart break. Little did I know he would turn down my Christmas present and I had to return it. To later find out his girlfriend bought him the same gift and he wore it. BLEH.
What did I expect? I knew he wasn’t right for me. Everything about him was the opposite of me. Wanna know why? He was the bad boy. I was a Christian girl who didn’t cuss, and I played by the rules. Everything he did, I wanted to do, but wasn’t brave enough. To be his girl gave me a new image.
Sometimes we will do anything for love. Love will keep you blinded from the truth. Let me retract that statement. Lust will blind you from the truth. The truth was he was beginning of rollercoaster of being somebody’s somebody. I was 16 and didn’t know how to pick up the pieces of my heart. I remember crying to my mom and she told me that he wasn’t crying over me so why would I be wasting my tears.
I told you I’d be with God soon. Well, we started this surfaced relationship(on my end). I didn’t get too invested in Him, but I just knew He would listen. I began writing God letters. I think I wrote a whole journal of letters about this gentleman. God, I let a man crush my spirit. How would I bounce back? How would I recover? Will I be happy again?
Sis, God can bring the broken back to life. This would be the 1st of many times He has had to restore my broken heart, because I simply wanted to be somebody’s somebody. Jeremiah 17:9 says, “The heart is deceitful about all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?” I would tell myself to follow my heart like the movies told me, but now I know sis and I want you know. Follow Christ. He will lead you into truth.