Can I be honest with you ? I’ve changed my cell phone number at least 5 times. I figured if I changed my number I could get over the guy quicker. What I failed to realize in those 5 times that I psychotically memorized their numbers and when I felt weak, I would shoot the text that would entangle me in the web, ONCE AGAIN.
Let me take you back to the first time I changed my cell phone number.
The first guy I met in college, introduced me to “me too.” I would text him, “I love you.” I wouldn’t hear back from him until the end of the day. The text would read, ” me too.” LIKE what? You love yourself too? I’m unsure of what’s happening? 1. You don’t text me back until a million hours later 2. You text back two words. (Lord, I forgive him) Lol.
I wasn’t a priority. They use to tell me if you are the last thing he thinks about before he goes to bed- If you are the last phone call he makes before he goes to sleep, you’re the one. Sis. They didn’t tell me I had to wait until 11 p.m. to get a phone call. Like how late is his bed time? So there I was waiting. And waiting. And waiting. For what? I’m not sure.
“Me too,” was the most unfulfilling statement. Have you ever received text like this? If so, can you remember the frustration? I can. Sitting here typing, I’m constantly rolling my eyes! Ha! Like girl, forgive him. Let it go! Side note- that’s the awesome thing about reflection. I can think of the times I’ve been hurt and remember them. If I still feel something, I immediately forgive them. Forgiveness is a process. I’m not sure why I shifted to forgiveness, but sis forgive him. Holding unforgiveness is drinking poison. It may be a simple matter such as receiving too many “me too” text messages, but it hurt. Maybe not the first time, maybe not the second time. Oh, but by the end of the school year I was ready to blow!
Colossians 3:13 says, ” Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others.
Sis, I know it’s not easy. I will let you know there is such FREEDOM in forgiveness. The people who hurt me the most, I can see their lives flourish and be thankful to God. Before I married, I picked up the phone and prayed for the same gentlemen who caused harm to my heart. It’s freedom. Pure Freedom! I didn’t have to change my number. I just had to forgive.
This kind of changed huh? Lol. God is just reminding me that the “me too” text messages aren’t important. None of it mattered. All of the nonsense broke me to reach a point in my life where I could be built up with strength. Whether you think you’ve forgiven or not, I challenge you to ask God to reveal to you anything that needs to be confronted.
Sis, let me pray for you.
You see all. You know all. Reveal to my sister the hurt that may be masked. God we choose to dig a little deeper to find those things that hold us back from the fullness of you. Help us to let go. Help us to turn the other cheek. Help us to maintain joy. Help us to see that forgiveness doesn’t mean the other person wins, but that it’s quite the opposite. God, help my sister see her worth. You are our greatest desire. We love you!
P.S.- If no one else tells you, you’re worth more than a “me too,” text.